First pregnancy vs. second pregnancy

Battle Of The Babies: Grudge Match Edition

Being pregnant two times within two years does something to a woman. It changes ya' and I'm saying this from first-hand experience.

In 2018 I was pregnant for the first time with my daughter Cállyn. I downloaded apps, read articles, asked for advice from countless family members and friends and was way more consistent with keeping track of all things BABY.

Fast forward to 2019 I got pregnant again and I was way more chill about the entire thing. I did not need as much advice as the previous year, the baby apps that were deleted off of my phone and tablet were not reloaded and I was so over hearing suggestions from my family members. In my opinion, I had it under control this time.

With Cállyn I was a nervous wreck! I did not want to make any mistakes even though I am sure I did simply because that's what parenting is, one beautiful cluster fuck of disasters. Mistakes are made and you learn from them. I treated cállyn as if she were a glass doll and boy o' boy am I paying for that now.

Fast forward to the birth of my son Denver. Like I said before I was way more chill about his pregnancy and that kinda trickled over into how he is being handled as an infant. Unlike my first time around I know that he will not break, crying is inevitable, seedy green poop is normal and babies break out. All of the things that freaked me out before are water under the bridge now.

I am used to being a mom now I know the difference between my babies cry, I know when they aren't feeling well when they are hungry, cranky and just in a mood. Who would have thought that I would have been able to do this? I know I didn't. I can't tell you how much I've doubted myself but look at me getting things done and shutting shit down.

pregnancy one Vs pregnancy two was something like a grudge match and while my first pregnancy won do to a knockout I redeemed myself with my second. Both experiences were totally different yet equally challenging in different ways. My pregnancy with Cállyn was physically demanding and it even took a toll on my mental state while my pregnancy with Denver was solely emotionally demanding. Needless to say I rather a mood swing or two over being fatigued and in pain.

Good luck with your pregnancy journey.